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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

OH FREAK!! I'M DISFIGURED!! Gosh! I have to cover my face when i'm outta the street. Damn. I saw four long scratch marks on my face when i woke up. Is it my doings when i was sleeping? Suddenly i remember dreaming about having 4 cuts physically. Oh my, thats scary! -EEK!- Darn it. And its pretty obvious thou. Ugly me. Sigh. My mom refused to buy 6230i for me. Why? Cuz of that irritating guy at home. He freaking wants me to buy that myself when i get to work. Thought it was a relieved when i complete my course and freed from Informatics, i was so wrong. New problems arised. Now that guy freaking hell wont allow my mom to buy a phone for me n pay for my car license. I have to pay for myself. Not that i dont want to pay, but i need the things now. Who knws when i can get a job? Sigh, not only that. He just wants me to pay for bills and all blah blah, give me so much stress for what? Why cant he just wait till i settle down for a job first then discuss this kinda domestic stuff? I'm not even working now. Sigh, i feel so tight so stressed up, i cant breathe. Everything's choking me badly. My proj submission is nearing every single sec. Sigh, what can i do.. I dont think i can even enjoy n hv a proper rest before getting into the prison of occupation. I guess i'll just hv to slog my life to work. haha sound so pathetic.

And that freaking migraine wont just stop coming back to me everyday. Whenever it comes back, it will last till the end of the day. Its throbbing and spinning, can hardly do anything when it acts up. I'm like living in a hell. Someone pls help me!!! haha. i'm going crazy again. Oh damn, i can feel it coming back again, sigh, and its gonna last till the end of the day. Well done, i still have to do my work. Bear with it, just hope i can do things right.

*I'm just like walking in a mist.. i feel so lost*


posted by chapter at 3:45 PM :: comment link here

About Me

Name: Yu Hui
Birthday: 24th December 1986
Am addicted to white mask and CK Be
I am what i am. Reality aint my cup of tea
Mushrooms anyone?
No doubt i love my loves
I'mma stuborn freak, i won't deny that

I've learnt the hard way

I'd rather walk away

If a picture paints a thousand words, then shut up and paint!

Smile is one of the most mesmerizing part of thy soul. It captivates one's beauty.

The eyes are the window of your soul too. It speak volumes. It says, i'm hungry.



Some things are better left unsaid...


I'll not make e same mistakes that you did
I'll not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I'll not break e way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned e hard way, to never let it get tt far
Because of you
I never stray too far from e sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on e safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long b4 you point it out
I cannot cry, bcus I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with.. Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everythin it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nth could go wrong
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hangin on
Here I am, once agn
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see e tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everythin, opened up n let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all tts left of me is what I pretend to b
So together, but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on.. I'm so afraid tt you're saying it's over
It's e last thing tt I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Pls don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cuz I would gv e whole world, for you
Anythin you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say tt you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just sayin e words
If you've got smth to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it b heard
I'm so afraid tt you're sayin it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
If your hearts not in it, for real
Pls dont try to fake what you don't feel
If e loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I wld gv e whole world, for you
Anythin you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it..


_Shout Out ta me_


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