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Friday, October 21, 2005

... i dunno.. i'm in confuse mind now. one of my colleague got terminated this morning. i was wondering when i'll be the next one? sigh. i felt so much.. mixed feelings. ok, this colleague of mine, she's not well-liked. i supposed she's very straightforward, kinda domineering, maybe demanding? character. but, seriously she's a very nice girl. she cares.. but yet can be quite an irritant at times. personally, i dont mind being with her. but 3/4 of the team doesnt really like her. sigh, sometimes i just felt like i'm stuck. kinda helpless. i was affected by this issue. its the 3rd week of my trg, and i'm concerned that i'll not be able to handle cust and i'm dead meat. one more week of this trg and i'm gg up 2weeks for double banking. its a period that u'll just sit down and see how the CCC handle calls and such. i'm in of no mood to really joke and hang out now. i'm scared.. really scared. wondering if i'm suited for this stressful job. coming wed's is the major assessment, i hope i can make it anyway. i'll just take one step at the time uh. oh, i'll mention that i went to drink at my usual pub near my office 2days back. i was really darn high.. dammit. i msged the things i shldnt let anyone knw and do silly daring things.. i clearly knw what i'm doing but i just couldnt control myself from stopping. i just think aloud.. etc.. etc..

my colleague lar, say i'll acc him for awhile in the end, we ended up playing games and all. those poker cards, dices and those hand guessing games. oh well, i only knw how to play 21 pokercards and they wanted to play tai tee. so i just asked my friend to play for me, she play and i'll drink. haha. so she lost couple of times and i have to bottom up quite a few. i drank too fast thou, that's why i was kinda high. haha. even have trouble going home. well, at least i knw my way back hm thou. ad i had hangover in the aftnn next day. oh well, i'm retarded thou. anyway, i hv to go back to my Vantive sys trg alr. hv to do soooo many things inside. ED, PR, activate, de-activate things blah.. great, and my com system hangs. haha. tata!


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About Me

Name: Yu Hui
Birthday: 24th December 1986
Am addicted to white mask and CK Be
I am what i am. Reality aint my cup of tea
Mushrooms anyone?
No doubt i love my loves
I'mma stuborn freak, i won't deny that

I've learnt the hard way

I'd rather walk away

If a picture paints a thousand words, then shut up and paint!

Smile is one of the most mesmerizing part of thy soul. It captivates one's beauty.

The eyes are the window of your soul too. It speak volumes. It says, i'm hungry.



Some things are better left unsaid...


I'll not make e same mistakes that you did
I'll not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I'll not break e way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned e hard way, to never let it get tt far
Because of you
I never stray too far from e sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on e safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long b4 you point it out
I cannot cry, bcus I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with.. Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everythin it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nth could go wrong
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hangin on
Here I am, once agn
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see e tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everythin, opened up n let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all tts left of me is what I pretend to b
So together, but so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on.. I'm so afraid tt you're saying it's over
It's e last thing tt I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Pls don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cuz I would gv e whole world, for you
Anythin you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say tt you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just sayin e words
If you've got smth to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it b heard
I'm so afraid tt you're sayin it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
If your hearts not in it, for real
Pls dont try to fake what you don't feel
If e loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I wld gv e whole world, for you
Anythin you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it..


_Shout Out ta me_


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